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Thursday, 13 August 2009

Tuesday, 04 August 2009

  • random thoughts

    my friend krysten keeps xanga alive for me. thus, an update.

    this summer hasn't really felt like summer to me. mainly because i wear pants and blue shirts every day. well, at least 5 days a week. i like it because i don't have to think about what i'm going to wear, but it doesn't really make me happy that i can't wear shorts.

    i go to lake michigan every chance i get.

    i turned in my two week notice at walmart on friday. and now i feel like i am just getting to know the people i am working with. urg. i hate that.

    camp and ciy have come and gone. it was great to be with students again. i am really looking forward to my student ministry internship. i look forward to exploring a new city. going to their library (yes, that will be one of my very first places to visit). going to their walmart. going to the grocery store. going to starbucks and hopefully having awesome conversations with students, mentors, strangers, or anyone really. i am looking forward to it becoming MY city. MY home.

    i've been thinking about campus ministry so much lately it hurts. college students are really close to my heart probably because some of my best growing moments and some of my HARDEST life moments were in college. i grew. i changed. i fought. i cried. i laughed. i went on many adventures. i loved.

    ok, so this mom came into my line at walmart a couple weeks ago. her son (i'm guessing 4-5 years old) was playing with one of the toys in line. she told him that he needed to have money to pay for it and he didn't have a job. he said YES I DO! and she said, oh yeah, where? and he said inside of me. i am hoping that his mother wrote down that moment.

    how stinkin' cute are kids?! i absolutely love them!

    i'm moving next saturday. moving. across the state. to the east side. i've always been a westsider in michigan. i love the beauty of lake michigan. i'm moving closer to canada. i have never been to canada except for toronto airport, which i don't really count. i'm hoping within this next year to go into canada. that's at least one of my goals. we'll see. i have other goals... but that'll be another post for another day.

Thursday, 28 May 2009

  • life lately

    i finished Purpose Driven Life.
    i suck at 40 day things.
    i think it took me at least 45-50 days to get through it.

    i'm addicted to mafia wars on facebook.

    i'm reading through hebrews.

    i'm also reading james patterson's 1st to die.

    i found my cds.
    CDs? who listens to those anymore.
    i have rediscovered whitney housten, kirk franklin, damien rice, and out of eden.

    i am catching up on LOST.

    i am reconnecting with people from high school.
    i've seen a lot of people from HS at walmart.
    it's fun.
    some of the people have kids -- they are adorable!

    it's summer.
    summer in michigan makes up for the winter.

Monday, 23 February 2009

Tuesday, 03 February 2009

  • where did january go?

    i can't believe it's february already!

    i'm still at joanns.

    subbing is picking up! i subbed three times in the past two weeks. i subbed high school english at SJHS! haha... it was pretty interesting being in that school. it's my dad' HS, but my HS's rival. haha... made me laugh. i also subbed for a 3rd grade class. they are fun. yesterday i subbed a 4th grade class. they took a math test and i didn't know the answer to one of the questions that they kept asking me about.... made me think of "are you smarter than a 5th grader?" i guess i just try to block out math.... except for budgeting and financial stuff... i don't care how many vehicles per person are in texas.

    my book list has been really good this year. I read i sold my soul on ebay (very insightful to non-churched people's view of church), do hard things (a challenging book about teenagers' ability to rise above low expectations), messy spirituality (the BEST book i have read on having a good spiritual life. i highly recommend this book to people who feel like a failure in christianity). oh and i DID make it through sense and sensibility. next is mansfield park. don't even know what that austen book is about. not one of her better known works.

    i resigned from my job at the church. long story. just not the right fit. but i am happier in life.

    i miss ministering in a church though. it's weird to be able to visit other churches. i wish i lived closer to indiana so i could volunteer at GCC.

    sometimes i wonder why i am still in michigan.

    i saw marlies in lansing and she asked me why i was still in michigan, too. i guess there's something i need to learn about being back in my hometown/home county area. i am convinced that God is making himself known and clear through one of my favorite (and also LEAST) verses.

    Acts 1.8: But you will receive power when the Holy Spirit comes on you; and you will be my witnesses in Jerusalem, and in all Judea and Samaria, and to the ends of the earth.

    Translation for me: With the power of the Holy Spirit, you will be my witness in your hometown, in your state and country, and to the ends of the earth.

    it's my favorite because i really do believe that it is God's plan for my life. it is NOT my favorite because it means i start back where i came from. it's not always fun that i came back home after graduating college. it was nice to see my family and i still enjoy being around them. there's a lot of uncertainty with job situations though about where they will all end up anyway. but i feel like i am missing that deep connection with friends my own age. i have come to appreciate people who are my friends in the area. i have a couple of friends at work, who right now i only see at work... but they make the time go by faster and more enjoyable. i have a few youth minister friends. it is good to have that support. but now that i am not connected with a church, i kind of feel a little out of the loop. there's also the HOUSE bible study. it's a young adult bible study. i have come to appreciate it. my best friend's mom has also been a really great friend to me. I just miss being able to call people and meet them. i feel kind of isolated in the little town i'm in because it's 20-30 minutes from everyone i know. eh, there's a reason for the loneliness. for the opportunities to be friends with some of the people who have crossed my path.

    i just wish the next step were here. it's still several months down the road and i have a hard time enjoying the fact that i am still here. but i must cherish the time i have with the people i am sharing life with. someday i will wish for these days of being where i am at the moment.

    those are my thoughts...